No supe...

No es que se busquen pretextos o justificaciones...tampoco pretendo poner etiquetas de culpables...sólo expresar lo que siento ante aquella noche, esa noche en la que "tomé" una decisión...una decisión que no fue mía..si no de otra persona...aunque dijera que sólo fue mi "decisión"...

Esa noche no pidió hablar...no pidió arreglar las cosas...respetó una "decisión"...esa "decisión" indecisa...
Incluso después de esa plática no sabía yo si esa historia había llegado a su fin...
Al siguiente día, sólo hubo silencio...silencios que confirmaban esa decisión que "tomé"...

Quise hablar antes de tomar la decisión, quería saber que podíamos hacer con eso...pero el sólo decía que yo ya había dicho que ya no más...siendo que yo estaba sumergida en una eterna confusión, una maraña de sentimientos y pensamientos revueltos que no lograba hilar con orden...quería arreglar las cosas, pero sólo decía que yo había tirado la toalla, cuando parecía que quien la había tirado era el...quizá era el momento que esperaba..porque no puso objeción...

Días después preguntó que si estaba segura...pero esa pregunta llegó demasiado tarde...

Escrito:
27/agosto/2010

Now and forever...

Now and forever, you are a part of me
And the memory cuts like a knife
Didn't we find the ecstasy, didn't we share the daylight
When you walked into my life

Now and forever, I'll remember
All the promises still unbroken
And think about all the words between us
That never needed to be spoken

We had a moment, just one moment
That will last beyond a dream, beyond a lifetime
We are the lucky ones
Some people never get to do all we got to do
Now and forever, I will always think of you

Didn't we come together, didn't we live together
Didn't we cry together
Didn't we play together, didn't we love together
And together we lit up the world

I miss the tears, I miss the laughter
I miss the day we met and all that followed after
Sometimes I wish I could always be with you
The way we used to do
Now and forever, I will always think of you
Now and forever, I will always be with you

Hard...

It ain't no fun lying down to sleep
And there ain't no secrets left for me to keep
I wish the stars up in the sky
Would all just call in sick
And the clouds would take the moon out
On some one-way trip

I drove all night down streets that wouldn't bend
But somehow they drove me back here once again
To the place I lost at love, and the place I lost my soul
I wish I'd just burn down this place that we called home
It would all have been so easy
If you'd only made me cry
And told me how you're leaving me
To some organ grinder's lullaby

It's hard, so hard - it's tearing out my heart
It's hard letting you go

Now the sky, it shines a different kind of blue
And the neighbor's dog don't bark like he used to
Well - me, these days
I just miss you - it's the nights that I go insane
Unless you're coming back for me
That's one thing I know that won't change

It's hard, so hard - it's tearing out my heart
It's hard letting you go

Now some tarot card shark said I'll draw you a heart
And we'll find you somebody else new
But I've made my last trip to those carnival lips
When I bet all that I had on you

It's hard, it's hard, it's hard, so hard
It's hard letting you go
It's hard, so hard, it's tearing out my heart
But it's hard letting you go